Agoraphobish

Peanut has a 2pm vet appt, but it's so nice out I'd like to spend some time in the sun before then. I'm taking it in baby steps, getting dressed & ready, but I'm still really anxious about leaving the house.

I miss having friends to do things with, but I don't miss pouring all my energy into my old friendship with Sally. Why would she tell me she used to hate me? Or the thousands of other unkind things she did or said.

I made cookies & am making a small package for Harrison- maybe I can force myself to the Post Office.

Drop it to the floor

If you wanna get with me
There's some things you gotta know

I like my beats fast
And my bass down low

Friends

Developing schizophrenia to make new friends.

Happy Valentine's Day

Re-Re-Repeat Rockstar

I'm glad I'm doing things for myself today since I'm not getting a hold of anyone else.

Dressed up because I like dressing up, and dancing while I get dressed :)

Asked Mom if there were any errands that needed doing, as I was antsy & wanted to get outside. Plus it's like 56 degrees out and sunny. Really nice.

So Peanut & I did the recycling, and then decided to go to LongHunter State Park because it is so beautiful out. We only walked a little over 1/2 mile, but I took a bunch of photos. Good light for it.

I have my interview in the morning for SSI, I'm nervous, even though I know I qualify. I just hear everyone say they reject every claim at least once. It will be mentally and emotionally draining, no doubt.

The rest of my week is filled with doctor's appointments (and co-pays, as my mother mentioned, even though she already knows how bad I feel for being so expensive to maintain. I'm like a money pit).

But today Peanut and I had fun at the park. That was nice. And now I'm tired. Nap perhaps?

Sick for a week, how are you sick of me?

I'm being totally rockstarred (i.e. ignored) by my local buddies. Lame.

I did thoroughly enjoy Dana Carvey on SNL, & will probably spend the rest of my night watching the Dana Carvey Show, which I own on DVD. Another night alone in my room? You bet. Except I have to be sober too. Hurrah.

Enjoy the Super Bowl, fuckers.

What I wish I could do as an adult...

I would like to foster dogs & kids. I think it would make a positive supportive environment that encourages responsibility with empathy.

I'll have to wait until I'm stable enough to support myself before I can do anything.
This might take a while.

I'm so glad someone fostered Peanut for me, and I've always wanted to adopt and/or foster children. And Peanut pulled me up when I was so down; taking care of an animal, especially one in a similar situation as yourself, will give kids an understanding and patient ear. Over time, they will help to heal each others wounds and the children a sense of accomplishment and something to be proud of.

Sometimes the people that are supposed to take care of us can't be there for what ever reason. Sometimes dog owners die, or sometimes they do hurtful things to their dogs. This leaves the dog sad and scared, and it is then that he needs support most of all. If you have support, you know people care about you and want you to live a happy life.